I've felt like this for 5 years, ever since my 8th grade Summer break and no matter how hard I try I still cannot dig myself out of this. I spent my whole Summer break staying with my family in Colorado. I found them to be really harsh and low class and I disagreed with them the whole time.
My aunt was mean and wouldn't give in on anything and I felt like I was in the middle of a very dysfunctional family and situation. I had not been exposed to anything like this before. Soon after, I just fell apart and could never pull myself together.
Nearly all the time I feel stressed or anxious even when I'm not around particularly stressful situations. I feel like I have very low self worth and I try to promote myself to be bigger than I am. I expect people to give me attention and not to disagree with me. I also feel really sensitive and always need "a break" away from people and any social interactions so I can build myself to feel better.
When I'm around people anything they say gets me stressed out. Almost all the time I feel emotionally and mentally wrong or different from everyone else. I also feel very nervous in social situations and I'm having a very hard time making friends or even just finding happiness and security. Its as though I completely feel I don't belong on this planet and I feel like I'm only comfortable with myself and just being with me.
I fear I have many personality and anxiety disorders...
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