I've been seeing a psychiatrist since April, I was forced to by my commander while I was in the army. I've since been chaptered out due to a diagnosis of schizotypal personality disorder, depression, anxiety, and the one that is very scary to me, dissociative identity disorder. There are over "17" identities in me that have been identified, they are very real to me and live in an elaborate world. I'm about to move a few states away and I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do. Those who are aware of my situation say I definitely need to see someone. I'm tired of it, though. I've been tossed around between psychiatrists, psychologists, therapists, and mental health specialists. I've taken dozens of different medications, tried to kill myself twice, and was hence hospitalized twice. I'm starting to think there's just no hope for me. I believe I'm Satan's pawn, that he plays with me, puts thoughts in my head and enjoys my pain. Everyday I wake up so scared. Some days, I don't even remember. I hurt myself to get "grounded". I don't know what to do. What should I do?
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