I was molested by a neighbor when i was 12 yrs old. I lived with the burden alone for almost 2 yrs when I confided in a close friend. By the time I told my parents I was suicidal.
I made numerous bad choices afterward. My parents didn't pursue the issue legally or personally. The man was never confronted. I have suffered with self esteem issues ever since.
Later in life I made more bad choices including tep that I can't forgive myself for. I let someone convince me to have an abortion. Not just once but twice. That is the worst pain I've had to deal with and i can't find it in me to forgive myself.
I'm at a loss for what to do. I'm scared to reach out to anyone. My family would not understand or accept the choices I've made so they are out of the question. I know I need help but i don't know where to turn.
I have suffered with depression most of my life but I have never talked to anyone about it or been medicated.
Please help. What do I need to do?
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