I'm a sixteen year old girl that lives in the southeast Iowa area. I'm a Junior in high school as well. For almost three years now I've been struggling with the overwhelming urge to just stay in bed during the day. I have no drive to get up in the morning and go and do things. I don't have a drive to want to do well in school, or do things that I used to enjoy doing. If it were up to me, I'd stay home all the time.
But on the weekends, my friends are always out and doing things. I would much rather stay home to allow myself time to relax and destress in some way. When I think about them having fun without me and being upset with me for not going out with them, I always force myself.
I can't talk to anyone about this-- I want to, but whenever I go to try and open up to someone, I feel as though they're going to think I'm whining and striving for attention. I don't like to show emotion to my friends at all. it's almost as though I can't because I'm afraid my friends are going to be annoyed with me. I just want to be able to talk to people about what I'm feeling without thinking they're going to hate me and be irritated with me for actually talking.
Can you tell me what I have?
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