Hi Doctor, thank you for taking this question. I am 23 years old and Bipolar. Recently, I was laid off from my job and cannot afford the cobra insurance. BCBS won't accept my application because of my preexisting condition. I am without professional help and coming off my medication. Can bipolars survive without the extra help? I've had the life of a typical bipolar. Irritable at a young age, always high-strung. Bouts of depression that would last 6 months at a time...cutting...followed by an incredible surge of motivation in whatever I would do. I can be abusive or let people walk all over me. As I got older, the symptoms were more noticeable. Incredible surges of energy at work. I could accomplish everything in one day! I would stay extra hours...etc. Then I would slip into depression and tell people to screw off. I got help when I was practically fired. The meds really helped to level me out. Everything was simple, including my happiness. My only complaint is that the Lexapro (although wonderful) would make me feel manic as hell and I did anything I felt like doing...including hurting people's feelings and hitting my significant other. The risperdal helped but the dose I needed made me feel sleepy and dull. I don't miss that part of the medication. In that light, I am glad I am getting off the medication. Hell, when I was on it I didn't even feel bipolar. Now I am getting off of it and I'm worried. Is there any hope for me? I cry myself to sleep because I feel like I don't have control of my actions anymore. I drink 6 days a week, hard liquor. Other than that I guess it's not too bad. I do a little work here and there although it takes a lot to get me going. (But when I'm going everything is good!) I can't sleep but I never could. I have brain shocks. I hope you have an answer for me :-/ Thanks in advance.
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