Hi, I'm trying here to tell just what is relevant, but there are a lot of things to tell. I'm young, so my environment changes frequently. I am starting to face responsibilities as I am becoming an adult, which seems to be my core problem, the transition from leaving an awesome childhood.
I think a part of my issue has something to do with me growing up in 13 different places. I went to many different schools and had many different friends and hobbies. Everything in my life has been evolving and progressing until about now.
I am currently 22. I had a drug problem when I was 18-19, which was kind of the peak of a happy childhood that I didn't want to end. My parents found out, took me to rehab, and I completely stopped using and engaged with new friends.
Then I became a training addict and started competing in martial arts. However, lost interest after a while. I simply got bored doing the same thing. I'm still active in my training, but I don't have the same passion anymore, because there is nothing new.
I am unemployed, I have debt, and I can't stand school. I have ADHD and this has put a pretty dark cloud over myself. Now, I actually enjoy it a bit because I used to have a job, was studying, had money was training, but, I was unhappy because I got used to it. So, my inner control is forcing me into new situations where I do other things than I am used to. This is regardless of whether it's "good" or "bad."
I can conclude that I need new things to happen frequently, and this clashes very much with how I can be successful in society. And that is my mind bug, depression, anxiety or whatever I should label it.
I see the future as two ways. One is where I ignore the future. Another one is where I stop enjoying life while becoming "successful,"
I would love for you to give me your thoughts, suggestions, or what smart tricks you use to solve mentality puzzles. Thank you
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