I'm 24yrs old and have been diagnosed with depression since approx 15yrs old due to family circumstances of having an older severely disabled sister. Since approx 15 I was having trouble with depression and it affecting my appetite, mood, sleep, memory etc.
I have tried several medications, at first Citralapram and now Sertraline. At present I am fine and feel normal apart from the odd mood change, memory and concentration problems. But last year and probably the year before I did some very strange, abnormal things. I couldn't see it then but I can now. At first I went on approx 3/4 months of binge shopping getting myself into approx £2.5k debt. My family were great and they helped me out of my debt. Then, even more out of character, I started stealing things- sometimes random things that I never wanted or even needed. And I wouldn't use or sell these. Just hoard them. Even worse to admit, I stole money/jewellery / iPod, etc, off my friends/family and my partners family. Obviously I got found out and then partly realised what I'd done but not the abnormality of it. And I would lie lie lie until I would just get caught out. Stealing and lieing just aren't me!!
Now 2years on I can see what I did and the consequences and just cannot believe the things that I've done ! I feel so ashamed and so bad. My GP upped my sertraline to 150mg late last year and I feel normal and myself now. But I've done some research and feel that I may suffer from Bipolar disorder?!? Which if so could explain my inappropriate actions. I just want to understand why I acted like I was as it just wasn't me!!!
I know that you cannot give a medical diagnosis and I would need to see my GP to look into that , but does it in your opinion sound like it could be a possibility that's what I'm suffering from?? I know I need to visit my GP but I am ashamed to do so...as I will have to admit the despicable things that I've done. I will go to my GP if you feel that it could be Bipolar that I am suffering from but I just don't want to look like an idiot by suggesting it to them if its not that!? Please help me. I'm not after a diagnosis as I know that you cannot give me that- as I said before I would just like to know if you feel that the symptoms I have suffered from could possibly be explained by Bipolar?? Thanks
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