I am a first time writer. I have tried to find past questions that deal with my issue but can find none. I wonder if anyone else has experienced this. Several months ago, I started dating a coworker. The beginning was great. We had a lot of fun together and I found I could talk with her easier than most other girls I've been out with. However, I started to lose interest after only a little over a month. I questioned my feelings for her and pulled away. I wasn't ready to break up, but I didn't really think I wanted to continue either. Ultimately we did break up. Afterwards, I began seeing a past girlfriend. To make a long story short, it soured, and when it did, I found myself wanting to go back to my former girlfriend. It's probably also noteworthy that I discovered she was seeing someone else just as my other relationship was falling apart. My problem is that I still don't know if I love her. She hasn't come back and it has hurt me (which I feel is deserved since I hurt her previously). She now feels that she is in love with this other guy (who seemingly doesn't return her feelings which is hurting her). She has also mentioned in the past that she thinks she would just get hurt again. But I don't know what caused me to want her back. We were becoming friends but now I'm almost too ashamed. I feel I have made a fool of myself. The problem is that this has happened once before too. It seems to be a pattern. Why do I put myself through this especially when I'm not sure how I feel? Is it possible that I love her, or is this merely because I miss being involved?
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